Thursday, February 4, 2010

Could This Be It?

Could this possibly be my "AH-HA" moment? I don't know, but it kinda feels like it might be. In the midst of another sleepless night, I had a thought that I could not get out of my brain. It rattled around endlessly in that big empty space until I finally kinda went "Ah-Ha". This might be IT!! I realized, as I lay in bed, that my children have never seen me anything but fat, fatter, and fattest. I was 106# when I married, 14 months later, I had The Primary Child, and had gained a great deal of weight inexplicably during the pregnancy. The Dr. could not figure out what was causing the weight gain as I stuck to a strict 1500 calorie diet. I did give up smoking the day I found out I was pregnant, so he thought perhaps my metabolism was out of whack. Whatever!!! After the delivery, I lost a bit of the weight I'd gained, but not lots and lots. Four years later I went through the same thing while pregnant with The Perfect Child. Again, I lost a little of the "baby fat" but not all. So, neither kid has seen me anything but fat! I have always been "The Fat, but very funny, Mom". And, quite frankly, it didn't bother me a great deal until just recently.

In between then and now (the kids are 37 & 33 now) I've smoked and quit 3 times. That means weight gains that I've only been able to partially get rid of. I've dieted, exercised and worked on my weight periodically since the 80's. It wasn't until Hubby Dearest and I approached our 60's that I decided that we needed to change our health habits. For me, that included losing weight. It's been almost a year since I had the first "Ah-ha" moment in Phoenix and decided to start both a new, healthy lifestyle and this blog. As I've chronicled before, I've lost weight, gained a little back, then lost again. Seems as tho' I'm dibbling and dabbling at this journey. I am hoping that last night's epiphany is just the impetus I need to jump start myself again. I told myself that if I could just lose 1 pound per week for 1 year, I'd have 52 pounds gone! Simple, isn't it? No lofty goals, just one lousy pound. Anyone should be able to do that, with or without a good knee, right?! I'll dance my way to success....if I don't knock myself out first. :)

So, with this being said, I think I might just have hit on the new plan. One lousy pound per week for one year. More per week would certainly be welcomed, but steady losses would be wonderful. I am hopeful that I'll not be shooting myself in the foot again any time soon, and that this modest plan is THE ONE that yields success.

By the by, Weigh In Wednesday brought no change. But that's no loss, no gain, so I'll be starting on my new journey with no new extra weight to get rid of. I guess that's a positive point.


  1. I also had the realization at some point that my three kids have never known me as other than fat! What a devastating realization! I gained 50# with my first and never took it off; in fact, added another 25# by failed dieting attempts! Unfortunately I can't do that over, but I am hoping they will have a chance to see me as a thin senior, which I believe is the real me.

  2. Y'know, one pound a week sounds so damn easy, but stringing those losses together will certainly add up and this year will be gone before you know it.

    I think you can do this, too.

  3. That's what i've decided, any loss every week would be a welcome change :)

  4. I think you may be on to something! With The Plan, and with the dancing, which I'm going to try tonight! (If you don't see a post from me tomorrow, please call 9-1-1. :)

    It's going to be an AWESOME year!

  5. Well now I feel stupid, lol. I just posted about being PISSED that the nutritionist wants me to ONLY lose 1 lousy lb a week, lol. Forgive me. :)

  6. You can do it! We are all here cheering you on!

  7. I'm kinda kicking myself. I should be able to do 1 pound a week! Lets do it together!!!

  8. I'm with you 100% on this.
    A pound a week is a lot in a year!
    And a good goal!


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