Aw, Shucks is right! I'll tell you why...after the long weekend, against my better judgement, I took a sneak peek at the scales yesterday morning. You know, just to see what the weekend's festivities had wrought. I was totally delighted! I was down 1.2#. No good ever comes of sneak peeks, let me tell you. This morning, which of course, is Weigh In Wednesday, I was down only the .2# portion of the event. DAMN! Now if I subscribed to Patty's theory and believed the 3 day rule, I'd say that Sunday's sins had caught up with me....but I was very good on Sat., Sun., and Mon. It was Tuesday that did me in. I did some cardio on the bike, in spite of my bad knee. (I tried to upload the image of the bike readout, but kept getting an "internal error" sign.) At any rate, I did 30 min. on the bike, but I'm not sure it was really cardio minutes, as my pace was less that sterling. Hopefully, the PC lets me count it!!
Following my brilliant start to the day, I continued to be very good. Lots of water, writing in my food journal, I was doing just fine. Then the torrential downpours began, both outside, and things into my mouth. Mindless eating at its finest. With each "goof up", I asked myself why? And since answering yourself is a sign of mental weakness, I did not reply to that question. I simply picked up something else to eat. Now, none of the foods I ate were bad for me, there was fruit, whole grain English muffins, asparagus (leftovers), stuff like that. I just ate way, way too much of each and every item. So I kinda suspected today's weigh in wasn't going to be pretty, and therefore, I'm ok with just a .2# loss. After all, a loss is a loss is a loss, right? Had I held on to that 1.2# loss, I'd have cracked my first barrier goal.
That brings me to another dilemma. I have thus far refused to publish my starting weight and my goal weight, and all the mini-goals I have in between. I am just too damned chicken. Mostly because my kids read my blog, as do a few friends. If I could keep the info confidential, like just between my millions of readers and myself, I'd be ok. At what point do I get over this? I'm certainly not ready to do it yet. The best I can do for now is say that I'm under 250 and above 200. That took all I had to type those numbers. Baby steps, I guess, and at least I'm 12.4# less than I was when I began this journey.
Yeah, my theory is probably a bunch of hogwash V because I had more than one "Aw, shucks" meal/beverage/snack...and I just want to blame it all on that one birthday celebration! But you still had a loss, and now you have a whole week to rack up an even bigger one for next week. As long as you don't hurt your knee!! (I am really focused on knees right now because my left one is killing me!)
ReplyDeleteOf the numbers you typed, the most important one is the 12.4!! Yay V!!
Oh, well, bet if you looked at the scales tomorrow they would be back down again, eh? The torture of it all! Hopefully next week will be a lot more to your liking.
ReplyDeleteAnd of course, the reason my blog isn't shown to friends and family (apart from two long-term real life lovely buddies) is because there is NO WAY F&F are going to know exactly what I weigh. It is bad enough they know my age!
Hope your knee eases up a little for you and you can enjoy burning up some more cals!
It's just a bunch of numbers, they only mean we have or have not reached our goal. Nothing to be ashamed, or even chicken about. Unless of course it means your not the same person. I didn't think so. Your doing great, keep plugging away, we'll all get there eventually.
ReplyDeleteA loss is a loss - that's what I've been telling myself! My husband doesn't know my real weight but I'm sure if he did a little math he could figure it out. That doesn't matter though. What does matter is that number continues to go down. You're doing a great job!
ReplyDeleteI feel the same about posting the weight number. I actually battle all the time with having it in my welcome message. I am embarrased by it but then I remember that I won't EVER be there again so I am okay with seeing it. My family does not know how much I weigh. My close friends and followers do. You are doing GREAT and focusing on the goal number seems more encouraging then looking back at the starting point.
ReplyDeleteIsn’t it interesting how we dieters always seem to focus on the negative instead of the positive? I do the same thing and am trying not to.
ReplyDeleteAs far as I’m concerned, you owe yourself a congrats for the .2-pound loss. It could have been a gain. And when you veered from your diet, you stuck with healthy foods instead of ripping open a package of Oreos or heading out for something deep-fried. Again, congrats! I think you did just fine. The most important thing is that we get back on track when we falter.
As for posting the dreaded numbers, I haven’t posted mine publicly either. I just recently admitted to my husband and daughter what my weight was. As crazy as it sounds, it was both horrific and cleansing at the same time to admit that I weigh as much as a football player.
I’ve decided that I am going to post the numbers on my blog in the future, as soon as I muster the courage to do it. I think it will help to keep me accountable. But, damn, it will be hard putting it out there for all the world to see. I can almost hear the shocked gasp whizzing throughout the blogosphere now…
--Susan
Maybe the other -1.o will show up next week. Fingers crossed!
ReplyDeleteYou mentioned the exact reason why I've never told anyone I know about my blog - I need that kind of "privacy" where it's not being thrown back in my face 24/7. What is killing me now is not posting any decent numbers to all of my blogger friends.
I understand not wanting to post the numbers. That's one reason why the only people I know IRL that know about my blog are DH and DS.
ReplyDeleteFWIW, I always go up a pound after weigh-in day. I don't think I've had a week where I didn't. It's weird! I weigh daily, so I know my patterns.
You do what makes you comfortable. For a long time I didn't tell anyone how much I weighed. It wasn't until after I'd lost a good deal of weight and was actually proud of my acoomplishment that I became vocal about it. But you know what? We don't need to know a starting weight and a goal weight to celebrate your victories with you! Soooo don't even give it another thought. If and when that time ever comes that you want to share it, then you'll know!
ReplyDeleteMaybe I don't mind publishing my beginning weight and current weight because I'm so old and don't really care anymore :o) But I get where you're comeing from.
ReplyDeleteI hate the scale!! I think there's a little person inside them that watches us eat and thinks to himself, "I'll just freak her out this week with a gain, even though she's been right on track with eating and exercising."
Good for you! Sometimes putting something out into the universe is just what you need to do to take the scariness out of something. You ripped the proverbial band-aid off and it probably doesn't feel as bad as you had imagined. I say cheers to that!
ReplyDeleteEnough of me being nice. You not so gently pointed out that you have a comfortable lead on me in the cardio challenge. I may just have to step it up. Primary Child says there isn't enough trash talking going on, but how can I beat up a lady with a bad knee? Karma's a you-know-what. :)
Finally... I've been looking all over the d*mn internet for this site.
ReplyDeleteNice looking blog. Family is a very important thing.
ReplyDeleteI *still* don't post my weight (starting or maintenance) on my own blog, though I've shared it on others. This road we're on is tricky some days and the most important thing is that we feel okay about what we do and don't share.
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